Day by day as I live, walk, talk it gets harder to act like I'm okay when I know that people will NOT understand what and why I feel this way and think this way. I still cry myself to sleep knowing that you won't be there when I wake up and I wake up knowing your not here to give me a huge and kiss good morning. And when I get home from school I know your not there to ask me how my day was and when I say " it was finnnnneeeeee " and know I was lieing you see through my mask and know I'm not ok it was ALL ACTING AND NO ONE SHOW THROUGH IT but you dad not even mom. There are so many things that I do that mom doesn't know I was capable of doing and or being so dad I hope with the life I have left you are resting in peace and happiness daddy. 💙💙💙🥰🥰